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Today i had a rough day. For you who noticed this when i returned to school today, I was very silent today. This is because of the commotion that happened to me with some person. I began my silent treatment. I don't know why, when my silent treatment is going on, usually i don't talk to them. however, this person thought that i was talking to them. Why? because they feel that the world is about them. self centered and egoistic person.

towards the afternoon, someone snapped off my nerve. He decided to go against what i have done, disrespecting the decisions i have made and executed. I hate it when this happens. If this shall ever happen, it should have been that before i made my point. But This fucking little shithead thinks that it is so unfair that students have to be fined when handing in assignments late. When I had made my decisions, I meant it. When it had been done, it should not be backwashed by pleading and begging to change the situation. Moreover, this fuck shithead went forward with a retorical question i told him. He is just so insensible. He had not been treating me like a person, respecting my position and appreciate what i have done. I decided to fine woth the late submission of practicals because days before, the class treasurer announced that he will be collecting funds from the class because the class fund is depleting seriously because of some certain people using over the budget for logistics required for the class decoration. They do not know how to be thrifty with their money. Then that shithead pointed out that after 3 weeks of money collection, they had a fund of $250 that will last us for over8 months of school supplies. yeah, only a week of fund collection of $1 each from every students, they had gained $250?! what bull shit is that? you tell me.

Guess who this fuck shithead.

Then i was relief that i finally could go home to my haven and relax and regain my mood. No, when i got home, nobody said hello when i stepped in, and while watching my favorite show american idol on tv, another shithead at home decided to ruin my peaceful time by blocking the tv. wow, what a time to be happy again.

Rough day, but i am telling you, that fuck shithead in my school will no more speak to me, and will i give him my respect as an individual. I am telling that fuck shithead to go and be yourself and don't expect responses when you talk to me.

How would i describe my friendship journey throughout my life?

Often, i get along with people very easily because i maybe some what outgoing or others would say flirtatious. Because of this, people soon felt that i am a friend to have perhaps because i am very helpful and may help them in times when they require. People start flocking to me, get to be what people would call friends. At that period of time, I have no intention of ruining the start of a good friendship, soon this friendship grew to be best friends

However, i have this tendency to spark up a conflict after a period of these beautiful friendships. After a period of time, I would have noticed all these friends behaviours, characters and faults. At some point of time, i would get very frustrated with the continuous observations of their mistakes, A nerve will break in my body and I will start spittting out all kinds of insults towards these friends. They will as though that they have done nothing wrong, ignore and thought that i would be unreasonable. After effects would either be an argument or a cry which will end up into broken friendships.

After then, it would be the silent treatment. Anything that these friends do or say, i will signal either a yes or a no. not a word spoken. If i am forced to say something, it will be sarcasms. This will eventually worsen the friendship. I will ignore them whenever they are in sight or give them a stuck up face. For those who have experienced my silent treatment, you will know that my silent treatment does not only affect these friends, but also their 2nd degree friends. They will also be given the silent treatment. Why? Some people like to dig out some dirt from someone to worsen the situation or try to mend the bridge. I do not like that kind of things to happen. When i say something to them, meet them, they may pick up some of my quotes and distribute to these friends, or persuade me to just forgive and forget. However, those kind of things never happens. My silent treatment last for as long as 6 months. I believe that only time heals the wound. If after six months i have began speaking to you sensically, that is a sign that these friends can start afresh. Most of the time, these friendships never get repaired, it will remain broken.

True friends are not those you would go after, they will come to you. Friends come to you not because they can depend on you, friends are there to bring joy and happiness to your life. My perpective of friendships is when they can laugh off their faults and not take them seriously, frequent minor arguments happening that you can always bring up and laugh it off, they are people who will be there for you to help and when they will also be there to support you. Friends are people who will take your opinions and suggestions constructively. Friends who have been there for you for longer that 6 months are friends that you will always be true to.

Friendships is never a fairytale story with a fairytale ending. I don't believe in "Friends forever", "Best Friends", "Happily ever after". These things will never happen. They are just statements that will come out of your mouths when you are happy and have the urge to say something like these. For sure, during friendships there is to be bound a few squabbles occurring between friends, that is no more happily ever after. There are bound to more friends out there that are better than your "best friends". There will be a day when a problem could lead to anger and hatred between each other, no more "Friends Forever".

When there are problems between friends, "whatever" do not solve the problem, it is a sign that you are weak when handling that fact, and you want that person to stop. They will not stop, they will go on insulting. Figure out a good rebuttal and fend off your dignity and attack them back. Soon, you will realise that both of you are equally not perfect, you will laugh off that situation, keep in my mind what were the insults that were dumped on you, work on it and be a better person. Insults are not opinions, they are a view indicating that you are not good enough because of these insults, turn over the situation by flipping that insult into a comment. It is a criticism that they want you to know that you have to work on them.

Hey everyone, i will have to apologise before i begin for the delay in the new segment. I am currently having problems with the programme needed to mix the online podcast. So you will have to bear with STOP AND STARE FOR A FEW MORE WEEKS till i solve the problems.

Today is the eve of Chinese New Year. The year of the earth rat. Today was also the eve of new year and during the new year period we are not supposed to blow up our mind. However, today I nearly did.

In school, during the celebrations, our class finally received our Class T shirt. When i got home, my guardians STUPID, INSENSIBLE, FUCKING IDIOTIC son ran to me and forced me to go play with him and a bunch of other small kids this game called Ludo. I rejected and he kept asking me again and again. Until one time i poped and said No loudly, i think. Then he ran to my room, and took my class tshirt and he started stretching it, wiping it on his dirty body. Pardon me for having a minor OCD. I started fuming, croaked him to put it back into my room. He refused and kept on pulling the shirt, wrapped it around his body. I fumed wildly till his mother finally took the lead and told him to return the shirt.

My class tshirt is the kind that is the sports shirt, the one that is made of polyester. this kind of shirt can easily get the threads be pulled out, i mean when it is hook by a small sharp pointy objects like nails and stuff, it will be pulled out.

When i got back my shirt, guess what, the threads got pulled out... i was fuming mad in my room. That idiot ruined my class tshirt. though the faults were not very visible from far, but my minor OCD says that it is bad... It looks awful, hideous...!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!