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i wouldn't say that it's kids nowadays, kids have always been like this...

okay, what happened is today was PIL day, and I was tutoring the kids at Yang Zheng, and it was funny how they behave. they tried to talk sophisticatedly by putting in a lot big words like earth day and politics shenanigans, but they knew so little about it. then when some one else talked about it in their perspective, they criticise them... how funny is that... then they were so immature, calling each other names and despise each other. I don't friend you la, i don't like him la, he stupid la... seriously, cannot take it la... then i can't stand it, i shouted at them to grow up. So immature...

now i know how grorn ups feel when we behaved that way. they must have thought we are stupid, immature and crazy people.

okay random stuff, i went to cut my hair, for $4.80. how cheap is that... haha, yup went to that saloon near the school, and i saved $4 than my usul haircut. and the hair cut is nice, compared to one i usually go to... haha... anyway you will get to see my new look soon...


xoxo
T

okay, today while walking back home, met a lady waiting outside of serangoon gardens secondary school. then she came forward to me, i was like trying to walk pass her, but she stood in my way, so i forces to stop.

I thought that she was going to extort money from me because she looked kind of rugged, i was ready with the bio book to hit her if she lay her hand on me. speaking of that, if she ever rape me, omg... i don't want to have her kids... lol, anyway, that's wild imagination.

her purpose was to survey me. So yea, all those stuff are bull-poop, i was playing with you, she looks like a decent lady. anyway, back to the survey...

she was from mediacorp, so hopefully i will be on the newspaper... lol. it was something about family stuff, because she is representing MCYS, which is something something youth and sports. and she talk talk talk, and i yes yes yes, and it was over. then she asked for my particulars, i was kind of hesitant to tell the truth, but oh well, after all i am going to go on the newspaper, better have my name on it that something else.

so that's about it, actually i wanted to develop the boring stuff more, but it wil lsound phoney, so let's leave it to the boring....

XOXO
T

Okay, the buzz that was going on in school was about what the principal was talking about on friday about cyberbullying. I just go the chance to read the article on stomp and these are what i wrote on the comments page, hopefully.

ARTICLE

I was really disappointed by the comments I have read.

Firstly, I read many comments saying that one person's poor behaviour tarnishes the school's reputation. I don't really think that this chap will destroy the school's name. After all, it's only one person that you are talking about. One person can't depict the image of the school. So the same as saying that you do one bad deed and you are a bad person. One foolish person doesn’t make the school foolish. Taking into account of a country, a murder happened; will that subsequently make the country a dangerous country to live in? Will the reputation of the country be tarnished? Definitely not, in any country crimes will take place, and you can't run away from that fact. Anyway people look pass these things quickly. Similarly, do you think that NYJC is the only school that this incident happened? No. There are so many other schools I believe that have done worse things than cyber bullying, then what have you got to say about those schools? All schools' are built with the same reputation. The foolish behaviour of a student does not represent the image of the school.

Secondly, I am really disturbed by the reactions of some commentors who said not to give this bully a second chance. This really shows how you are in society. Will you forgive what ex-jailbirds did in the past and give him a second chance, or are you going to remember all the bad things he did in the past and hold grudges till the day he lies in his grave? If you support the yellow ribbon project, why can't you forgive these people and give them a second chance? Let them grow from their immaturity and be a better person. After all these boys are the future of Singapore, if you don't forgive them, are you going to be secure when it's time for them to defend the country?

Thirdly, I was very disappointed how the stomper specifically included the school's name into his article. Seriously, why do you need to include specific details like that? Do you have an ulterior motive or something? Can’t you sensor the school's name? And why do you have to pin point on the school's reputation when clearly, the boys' behaviour has little to do with what the school's is doing. It all boils down to what they have been influenced by and moral teaching. The school has no right to restrict their influences and it's up to the student's to practice self censorship. Clearly these people have been influenced a lot by the media (sorry for pin pointing you now), and the media should do something to limit violence in their content. And the school is no longer at position to teach these students moral values. They are already 16-17, aren't they grown up enough to know what is right or wrong? And NYJC should have no partake in moral teaching, primary and secondary schools are by right supposed to impart as much values in their students. However, parents are still the number one lead to moral teaching, if their children are not behaving, what has it got to do with the school, after all it takes up on average 5 hours a day of the students' lives, whereas the parents should be spending more time with them than the school. If the children do not behave properly in public, the blame should not be placed on schools.

XOXO
T



UPDATE: I CAN'T SUBMIT THE COMMENT BECAUSE IT WAS TOO LONG AND I AM LAZY TO SUMMARISE IT INTO 1000 CHARACTERS. SO I'LL LEAVE MY DEFENSE HERE AND IF ANYONE WANTS TO SUMMARISE FOR ME AND SUBMIT IT, PLEASE DON'T.

OMG, I am so excited, i just found out that sytycd is starting in May, right after American Idol Finale. and it's a 2 hour premiere!!! so excited of the new choreographies that are going to put up.

other dance related, DWTS is left with 7 more contestants, so far lil kim, melissa rycroft (bachelor girl), shawn johnson and gilles morini (guy from sex and the city) are dominating. However, I am still all the way with Chelsie and Ty, because i think that Chelsie is so hot when she dances... and of course she is a brilliant dancers. however i disliked her jive choreography, it's a little too slow and stiff, and i hoped for more swing to it like the lindy hop. and why in the world they have to dance to that slow country song...

dance practice this week, i felt so much better when that male teacher wasn't there, because now i can dance my style, and don't have to listen to him commenting. anyway, i will be very pissed at him for releasing me from the exco run. this week's choreography is more expressive and i like it. i also liked the front chroeography, because i get to move a lot, but i was disappointed that the choreographer decided to scrap that. I was perspiring like hell from the practice, and it was embarrassing because other people are not that tired at all.

XOXO
T

i have decided to upload the post which i removed 2 weeks ago. Since it was kinda harsh at some manner, i have decided to censor a lot of parts which appears hurtful, so here it goes...

6 April 2009

I am really troubled now. Because i once had a discussion about how I will show my dislike to someone or something. and I said i would just ignore or go the silent treatment. And then someone told me that If it did happen to that person, I should tell that person.

so right now, i am kind of at split ends because this person never actually told me to say that. Okay, to make it easier, let's denote this person as a you. Okay, so you are being an ass. why? because when i say something, that is like when i said something like supposed to be kind of a joke, you always had a thing or two to rebutt and taking what i said to heart. I know i said before that "I don't want to be taken as a joke", I also don't mean to say that "everything I say I mean it from the bottom of my heart". Seriously, after a month or two having me around, you should've known what i was like. I understand that sometimes that I can go way out of line, I have learned to pull myself back. It's not I don't try being a better friend, it's that I have differing committments than you. You have other commitments, I don't go around saying that you are trying to get away with stuff and that you kind of distancing yourself from me. When i plan some stuff, and people cannot make it, I settle with things and cancel the plan.(ya, i'm accomodating in terms of PW) I don't go around accusing people of trying to getting away from things. And when i speak, you give that look. and when i say you gave that look, again more things you have to say. Seriously, this is kind of getting to the point of what _________ do, they defend their reputation, not accepting things as they are. When you talk, I listen, i don't give looks. I respond to what you say, i don't ignore. When you want things to go your way, I give in. because afterall friendship is about giving and definitely, there should be some taking. but there has to be a balance for both. i don't wish to say all these during peer conference, because i don't want to humiliate you, don't wish to make a fool of myself. So I am going to tell you this.

and you have to get this straight, when people talk, they talk halfway. you have to make your own inference. stop saying what ever leaving me hanging. because people don't wish to carry on because
1) it's embarrassing
2) it's hard to describe
3) it will be better you know that much
4) oops, I said something that i shouldnt say
5) go figure out

I have 2 sides of me. there is the good me, the bad me. In real life, I don't like to criticise or gossip, or rumour or whatever you do. Why? because i just don't like the taste of it in my mouth. and in my blog, i don't usually criticise people or gossip/rumour/what ever you guys do individually, I take on a group of people. call me a hypocrite or what else, but that's me. Again, i am not saying all the things i've posted here to you directly. why
1) i don't like the taste of it
2) when i say, you will have to say something else
3) I don't what to hurt people directly in their faces
But, if you want me to say it to you, tell me, and I will definitely say all the mean things i have to say. Let me finish, before you rebutt. After all this is just my opinions of you in the first 2 months, I can't say that you have been that way all along. So just take note of what I say, and there is no need to be insulted by what i say because again, i don't know who you are as a person yet, all the while i judge you maybe because of your accomodation process, so now that you know what i feel about your behavior, you can think about it.

XOXO
T

Happy Easter guys, and your prize for finding my blog is a new cover for April. Sorry, it's not really festival, but it's bright enough. And this is the song that i wanted to share. Actually i somewhat thought of the choreography for this song. Haha, never going to show it, until i am president of dance...

I am compensating this post for the one that I skipped.

So this is what happened during this long weekend.

Friday was Primary School Reunion. I went for 2, general reunion and 6A'04 reunion. It was nice meeting the people again after a few years of absence. I went to the general reunion and it was kind of awkward because everyone else had such drastic change, and i still looked the same as ever. And most of them are in poly, so i can't speak about JC stuff. and they were shocked when i brought my study notes along. I am having biology test this monday and it's freaking much things to remember. I need to get a head start. in fact in 6 hours, i am going into a deep study mode and make sure that i can remember at least 80% of the things. We sat for about 2 hours at food republic waiting for everyone to slowly meet up. We sat, we caught up, we joke, we laughed, and we kind of spoke nonsense half the time. Then we decided to have dinner, at no signboard seafood and it was freaking Expensive, but i managed to get my self out. So i made my way for the 6A reunion, it was at the same place, so no trouble that.

at 6A reunion, some one smart enough to suggest restaurant again. oh it was not as pricey as no signboard seafood, but it was still expensive. I paid $25 for the same satisfaction as $3 chicken rice. ARE YOU FREAKING KIDDING ME? Simply, i don't care about taste and flavour, so long as i am filled, i am okay with it. So definitely, there will no longer be another dinner for me, because i am done spending my week of allowance on a stupid meal. then another thing is, during dinner, the guys and the girls sat at separate tables, except one freaking person. Then their dishes kept on coming and coming, and we had to wait for 2 hours for all our dishes to come. they have no sense to wait for us to finish our food before leaving, and obviously, they left. and they planned to watch movie. ARE YOU FREAKING KIDDING ME? movie on a public holiday?! it costs $10 a seat. okay, that's not all. then they chose to move to cathay cineisleisure instead of staying at vivo! ARE YOU FREAKING KIDDING ME? you left us, and want us to come over to you! still not done. the movie proposed was scheduled at 11.30. so many agreed upon that, and they bought the tickets. when we got there, the place was almost deserted and we met them. we saw the tickets and it was scheduled at 12.15 am! ARE YOU FREAKING KIDDING ME? how long is the movie? 2 hours... how are you going to get home at 2.30 am?! So i decided to bounce instead of watching the movie with them, most of us did. I decided to take the bus home and others wanted to walk home! ARE YOU FREAKING KIDDING ME? at 11 at night, walk home?! i said no and they kept pushing me to walk home. i missed my bus thrice. However, it was fun, walking home and catching up with the guys.

Overall this is how i rate the outing, especially the 6A reunion.
Money quality: 1/10
Food quality: 3/10
Fun quality: 3/10
Catch up quality: 6/10
Exhausted quality: 10/10
overall quality: 23/50


Okay, now another thing. I am going to continue talking about CCA. I was cut from dance exco and i was disappointed. I have another CCA, PSL which is project service learning, and allalong i have said to myself that i am not going to run for exco. and people wer shocked why i chose that decision because i did a great job. Well, it's because firstly, the week when the decision was being made, I was really having a hard time because there were only 2 guys managing the class, me and another. They were actually supposed to do some game that was thought out, but i decided to change it to pictionary instead of the math game, because the kids have been doing maths and their eyes turned starry from looking at numbers. So we played pictionary, and the kids were getting rowdy and deciding panel came in and was very unimpressed by my job. That' the deciding factor guys. and anyway, i am glad i am not holding any positions cause now i can focus on other stuff. like i have said before, if i am not holding the highest position, i am not going to hold any positions. unless i am willing to, but that's is rather impossible.

XOXO
T

this week was extremely disappointing.

firstly, just today the principal was talking about all these cyber matters and warned the student body to watch what they are saying on the web. Apparently, as i heard that apparently someone was badmouthing someone on the web, and that someone was from our school. then the school found out his rotten behaviour and decided to expel the person. at that moment, i was thinknig.... oh crap, what do i have in this blog? haha... anyway, I was thinknig what has this society turned into. they are easily offended, easily complain, easily judgmental. then everyone is so conservative that they are afraid of to make their own decisions, but make decisions that people want you to make.

in another story, i was shortlisted for exco, and i was kicked out. I was super pissed. Why wasn't i picked? is it because I prefer ballroom/latin to contemporary. Is it because I wanted fusion of ballroom/latin into the choreographies? is it because i was being too enthusiastic on being the president? Is it because i am a guy and the society insist on females to lead the society? what is wrong with me not eligible for the position?

Now the task given to shortlisted nominees is for them to propose a project for the society. I have so many ideas i have in mind and now the society is not going to benefit from them.

After losing out from the run, I have now lesser mood to perform as best as i can. because seriously ccas in school is not the same as actual workforce. Doesnt mean that if i can perform better than the president, i will be promoted... It has been decided that the president is that person, and it will remain that way. So my contribution to the society has definitely dropped tremendously, and this has really brought much ease to my life. All the while i have been trying so hard to be on the teachers' good side, but apparently it makes no effect.

Now my positions in CCAs are,
none
Positions in class are,
none
positions in school are,
none

and the school says that every student has the potential to be a leader, but where is the opportunity? So many positions, yet so few students selected. there are people who are ambitious like me who wish upon greater responsibility, and there are some who wish to just want to have something to be proud of, no matter what happens. and often a times, these people who don't really want the job gets the job, and those who wants it are left to cry over the outcome. again like me...

anyway, I am glad that everything's over, now i can fully concentrate on my studies and get on with Project Work. Plealse let my ideas be acceptable.

xoxo
T

if you were quick enough, you would have witnessed that i hid the previous post, because i don't want to allow that person to have a lot of time to find ways to rebutt... anyway, i don't think that i should post it at all because i feel that it's very personal and i should not post it for the whole world to find out... so, this person if you want to know about it, look for me...