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明天就是我一时等着的一天。

Yeah all you people, it's true, you are seeing chinese. As you can easily comprehend, I am not a good chinese speaker or person in general. What I was trying to say is that tomorrow is the day that I have been waiting throughout the year. yeah, can you see how the statement derived from?

Anyway, tomorrow is the day when i get to truly express myself in chinese oral. O Level Chinese oral is tomorrow, and I am the the first group to be examined. Ooh.. nervous wave...

All the while people have been saying my chinese is a total screw up, always trying to bring me down or whatever. proven today. I was discussing chinese conversation topics with 4 people, 4 34 30 39. I was unpleased with what they are doing. 3 out of four are drown in their own pride to care for others feelings. One knows that he is terribly good but constantly putting himself down and bull****ting about how others weaker than him are doing many times better, and it annoys me because i was one of the victims. Another was so full of himself, whatever anyone says he has to appear many times better, using all those bombastic words to overwhelm them, then after that making them feel bad by revealing the scary fact exaggerated in ridiculous ways, that they are bad. The next was paranoid of all things that are coming in his way, he always tries too hard reason being that he realizes that in the group his chinese wasn't as good aside from me, and he has proved that from the results of the prelim oral, worst of all, when something isn't going his way, he blames himself. and you might wonder, what about the last one, I am not sure myself, he wasn't feeling well that day, so he does not communicate as much, so I am not to judge him yet. So what really scares me now is that the method of them scoring, by making use of the candidate before them who are clearly weaker than them, ostracise them behind their backs, putting themselves in a better light compared to them. I really dislike this kind of competitive behaviour of making use of other misfortune for their own well being. Truly an image of a sore player.

Right now, I am going to delete everything that they are going to say, read composition books because there are words in there that I can make use during the examination, compose myself to do the best that I can and just have fun. I will not perceive this as a test, but just a typical teacher to student conversation. :)