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I was super devastated today. As understood today was the release of the O level results for chinese, and in my heart I was hoping that I am going to get B3. Only a B3, not a high aspiration to get A1 for Chinese. But when I walked up to the teacher, she showed me this slip of paper

Teddy Handra Hon (4)(M)

I got B4 for the Chinese and Merit for paper 3 which consists of the oral and the listening comprehension. I didnt know for sure how good merit is? and how much it accounts for the result... I was super devastated. I only wanted a B3, and they gave me a B4... In my head, I kept repeating that, which started to make me thing the examiners didnt like me. However I wasnt too bad because this result wasnt far off from the regular Exam results that I had for Chinese, but often I can get a B3, but now they gave me a B4. Still I utterly shocked to discover that the people who expressed high level of intelectuality for Chinese didnt get the appropriate results to match it. But anyway, for those who did I am happy for them. Still, who cares bout them, this is all about me!!!

Well, later I went home and just a few minutes ago, I shared the news with my mother. She didnt appear shocked nor was she excited... She feels that I had done my best and that B4 was good enough. However she did not stop encouraging me, she pushed me to go on and take the opportunity of the re-exam because she believes that I can do much better than a B4. Hence, I will be taking the re-exam later in the year.