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haha, it's very rare that you are going to get weekday posts... this is because something is bothering me and i need to share with you...

when you own stuff, do you feel that you develop some kind of... I don't know ... a relationship i guess. It's like you feel like you know that things are meant for you and you feel that it is right for you. I don't know how to describe it now, because I am all jumbled up because i am doing my holiday homework at the same time.

Anyway, like i said, I developed a relationship/feeling for my things. When things get lost, I often call out their name while searching for it. most of the time, it works. It works like when you call a dog and it comes straight to you... It is just one of the quirks i possess. it's really weird when i do it in front of people, they might think that I am going cuckoo...

last term, a lot of people know that I lost my water bottle, it looks like the one at the bottom here. while tracing my steps and look for it, i kept repeating "my bottle" all the way, haha it's really weird. anyway, I didnt find it anywhere i went that day. I was very devastated, for real.

Then i went to the cafeteria to meet up with my classmates, and i told them what happened, and when i said my bottle, there I saw a few tables away, this bottle came into my view... then i just took it from the table. I always take things that look like mine even though it's not mine or it's mine. at first I noticed a lot of anomalies with the bottle, but i kind of ignored it because I didnt observe my bottle that much, so i wouldnt know what it looked like to be exact. And then i kinda pasted a label on the bottle, to acknowledge its ownership.

After a few weeks then, I suddenly felt that the bottle is not mine. There is this weird feeling when i use it. just today, when i drank from the bottle, I felt very weird doing it. then i looked all over the bottle, and noticed more anomalies with it. Then did I realise that the bottle is not mine, because I don't get the connection that i get when i used my bottle... I wanted to put it back on the table for the owner to collect it. I kinda felt bad for the owner because he must be very frantic when he realised the bottle he obviously brought with him suddenly went missing from the table. Now, i can't return the bottle because I have vandalised it...

so the learning point is to let go what you have lost, finding it back and worse getting something that's not it will make you feel very weird...

XOXO
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